This was an incredible essay with a really unique perspective. Reminds me of this one time one I got to meet of my favorite artists ever. He offered me a cigarette and I told him I’ve never smoked a cigarette before (im 24 and live in Western Europe. Never smoking a cigarette is an anomaly here lol) and usually when I say this to people they are surprised and then say “good, never start”. And so that’s what I was expecting. But he said “you should” and I don’t know why this stuck with me so intensely since that moment. Honestly a pivotal moment in my life. I’ve still never smoked a cigarette. But now sometimes when I meet people for the first time at a party etc and they are smoking, I approach them and the first thing I say is “do you think I should start smoking cigarettes? I’ve been thinking about it”. Looking for one other person who might tell me that I should for one reason or another. But still, no one else has, besides him, even though I’ve been looking for it. Anyways though, I feel this fascination with things that kill you just a little since then (and how we willingly let them, in return for something beyond us). And so your essay struck me. Hope to see you post again :)
Banger.
This was an incredible essay with a really unique perspective. Reminds me of this one time one I got to meet of my favorite artists ever. He offered me a cigarette and I told him I’ve never smoked a cigarette before (im 24 and live in Western Europe. Never smoking a cigarette is an anomaly here lol) and usually when I say this to people they are surprised and then say “good, never start”. And so that’s what I was expecting. But he said “you should” and I don’t know why this stuck with me so intensely since that moment. Honestly a pivotal moment in my life. I’ve still never smoked a cigarette. But now sometimes when I meet people for the first time at a party etc and they are smoking, I approach them and the first thing I say is “do you think I should start smoking cigarettes? I’ve been thinking about it”. Looking for one other person who might tell me that I should for one reason or another. But still, no one else has, besides him, even though I’ve been looking for it. Anyways though, I feel this fascination with things that kill you just a little since then (and how we willingly let them, in return for something beyond us). And so your essay struck me. Hope to see you post again :)